I'm screwed. Again. Every fucking bulletin here is, ooh men men suck I hate men boo men this man that man men men men. You would THINK I've learned. But Hey, apparently not.
Alex. Yes, that Alex. I..found him, or..he found me, or whatever, again..and somehow...we ended up...together. And it was perfect. It felt right, and it felt amazing and perfect. And now...I just dont know. He still loves his last one. Now I know when hes quiet and troubled...he's thinking about her. You know? I dont know.
Its just hard. It feels like the relationship is being held together by threads. It's just hard. I wish he could have told me before I got involved and attached and all of that, you know? My god. It was sooo perfect...this is insane. Why didnt he tell me, why didnt I know better...
I could ask those questions all day,
but I'm at work, so I really cant.
Bye. Wish me luck.
But I dont need it. I'm going to lose this fight anyway.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
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